:: thoughts from the heart, blotted by the hand ::

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Tuesday, February 22, 2005

Ugh!!!!! I'm deeply sorry.. If you could find that space in your heart to forgive me..

When you are already hurt, you end up getting hurt even more.
This is a note from a friend of mine whom I didn't mean to crush its heart..

From the guy I unintentionally hurt:

It was Valentines Day; I have tulips clutched in my
hand, fully determined to give it to someone Ive
only known for a week. A declaration of love in a
gift from a lover as its symbolism says. She was
the second girl I have decided to give flowers to in
my entire life. The girl who suddenly came in so
strong and rekindled my heart, my heart that I
thought will never fall again after being hurt from my
past love.

Somehow, I felt a strong connection with her. And
for a short span of time, I can say that I truly care
about her. I was really excited in meeting her for
the second time after having promised her that this
time our rendezvous will be perfect. The day was
full of anticipation. I wasnt sure what was going to
happen. I dont know how we will meet and I dont
know how it will turn out. All I know is I just want to
see her that day, talk to her, and just be with her.

She said she couldnt meet that day, and wanted
to be alone. I didnt understand why till I read this

"I would rather spend this day home alone, loving
myself instead of dating a guy I would not want to
love. " These words came from the girl I cared
dearly and is most special to me. Now I
understand Why you suddenly disappeared and
took my heart away just as fast as when you came
into my life and made me believe youre going to
give me yours For a while, I really thought youre
the one Goodbye, take care of yourself.

I end up losing one's trust, worry and most especially a friend.
Does one end up hurting another inadvertantly because she got harmed in the past?
Is this an endless cycle of getting hurt and hurting others?

-Tinay 6:14 PM |

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~*~I have my feet buried beneath sand, I have my mind burned with desire and I have my heart blistered with your broken promises~*~

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