:: thoughts from the heart, blotted by the hand ::

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Wednesday, February 16, 2005

Please read!!! This is my favorite post! :(

For My Anonymous Valentine..

On Valentines Day, one could expect the most romantic experience in her life. I didn't. I exactly knew what was going to happen from the minute I woke up to the very last breath I would take in my yielding classroom seat. However, I do not know what was going to happen after a frustrating day in school. I saw familiar faces as I walked towards my classroom. Familiar faces, I say; but strange reactions were painted on their faces. Everyone shared gifts. Some had flowers delivered to their classrooms; from their boyfriends, of course! Most received at least a rose from their closest friends. And passing notes scribbled in illegible handwritings were countless- it seemed to be the least thing to do for the people you care about. It was a nice state to look at but if you were to look in my heart, you would witness a broken trance..

Every minute of Valentines Day was like a hit on my thoughts, a slap on my face, the misery was so great that I nearly expired of envy- envy for those who had men who truly cared about how they feel. After all the hurting I experienced, there was one left to be grateful about. I am happy that we are going to meet up and because of this; I have turned down every person who asked me out for a decent celebration of Cupids Day. This is nothing to argue about. I would rather spend this day home alone, loving myself instead of dating a guy I would not want to love. At the back of my mind, I knew something was going to happen because he once said that he has a surprise for me on the fourteenth.

Yes, there was. His basketball training as his priority before me is of course valid. (as he always says.) He has gone here for not more than an hour to listen to my heart faintly beat, moan in agony, and cry hopelessly. Breaking a womans sentiment on Love Day was truly a surprise!!!

He has gone sooo fast. So soon that I wasnt given the chance to bid the last words of the broken dreams I built with him. I am left with no choice but hug him tenderly and kiss his soft lips for the last time. I know he tasted my tears, tears that included the final weep, romance and hope. I knew that this was the last time he would cry along with me. After this long elevator ride with him, I would finally learn to move on. I would have to say goodbye to the man I thought I could spend eternity with. I would have to welcome each day and tomorrow independently, trying to separate myself from the memories present and dreams left unfulfilled.

He gave me roses. Pink roses, the ones I genuinely adored. It was his, indeed, the very last rose Id ever cherish.

-Tinay 11:33 AM |

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~*~I have my feet buried beneath sand, I have my mind burned with desire and I have my heart blistered with your broken promises~*~

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