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Wednesday, April 13, 2005

Of Suicides and Sweets

Every Sunday is spent for the Lord. I was in mass with Mom in Christ the King and the family seated at our front pew seemed familiar. I was discreetly giggling at their Dad coz his hungry ass was eating his pants LOLZ. My Mom even said that the children were kinda cute. I freaked out when I read in the paper just now that the man I was laughing at shot himself dead in his car this morning. Cause: depression. He was appointed as the new president of a bank and apparently he became the youngest in the industry. The bank was foreclosed due to conflicts. Rumors have it that he even sent farewell messages to his closest friends through email.

I recall the time my English teacher talked about suicide. Christmas season holds the record for the highest suicide rate. This is brought about by the Seasonal Affective Disorder which leads one to think that one is not normal when the rest of the world is rejoicing and what one really wants is to just crawl into a corner and sleep for a hundred years. More to this claims that endomorphins are solutions to prevent suicide. (Endomorphin def. makes you think you're happy) The number one source of these? Sweets!!! So go ahead, dig in to those chocs,chips and candies! Summer's not all about getting buffed bods and fab tans.

I reckon everyone has been through the depths of despair. If I'm not mistaken, I WAS suicidal for three months (post-breakup days) but eventually got over it. Hey, I'm not saying that anyone who ends up killing himself is stupid. You can't blame him for that coz some are simply born with this disorder. They say those who suffer from extreme pain who resort to suicide directly fall into the inferno. Is it factual? Is there no valid reason to suicide?

Then more questions pop into my head...
When you love someone, do you set him free or do you fight for him?
Should you accept the person for who he is or should you change him to become a better person?
Does Mr. Right exist?
What are the standars when people say you're pretty/ugly? (I believe no person should label anyone as such because nobody really said the standars of beauty)
Why do they say that a banana peel can make u slip when in fact it doesn't? (I've tried it..)

Help!!! Witty people please answer! Cheddar, AM, Jourd please answer!!! :/

-Tinay 10:26 PM |

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~*~I have my feet buried beneath sand, I have my mind burned with desire and I have my heart blistered with your broken promises~*~

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