Often times, you don't really achieve your goal of forgetting someone when you start dating other people. Most of the time when you look for happiness, you end up getting desperate rather than just being lonely. Now I know the saying's true, "happiness comes from wanting what you have not having what you want." When you constantly go out and force yourself in the dating crowd, you'd feel emptier inside. You'd know that looking for another one isn't an answer because no one could ever replace the one you left. You'd soon realize that what you're looking for simply cannot be found in the sea of strangers that you think would suffice the process towards "moving on." RARELY does it happen that what you're searching for is the person right beside you or is the person you left. I'm glad that unusual magic occurred to me.

There's still this issue between the battle of your mind and heart that I never learned to master. To the professor of devotion, please advise me when to use either. I've been a slave to confusion and I want to be unleashed..

It's funny how fate manages to tie two people who grew to be so different. After months of being apart, I didn't really expect that destiny would still bring us together. Not as lovers, though but as the best of friends; this time, a genuine kind of friendship. There aren't any more barriers, no more people who are trying to drag us down to hell with them, and most of all; we've closed our worlds exclusively to ourselves. I just discovered that people around you are the ones who usually cause arguments between couples. The sad truth is, no matter how great the role of others is for lovers, they must try not to center the relationships on them. You should keep in mind the reality- the world is becoming crueler everyday. You won't have enough of people who are relentlessly pulling others down. Stories and lyrics of lovers' tragedies seem like Last Song Syndromes to me. I had enough. I'm trying to shut myself from idealism and live my own fantasies no matter how far they seem to be. If they don't come to be, then so be it. It just seems like it's my only key to happiness. I just have to wait; someone would build crazy fancies with me.

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