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Thursday, July 21, 2005

It's puzzling to figure out how fate twists people's lives, a tragedy turning into a fairy tale or the other way around, mine would be an exception, though. I've been going through the SAME sh*t, and I swear, having to live the same routine everyday could even be more stressing.

I'm currently trying to follow my anonymous commentator's advice. Actually I've done that so many times before, but this time I'm exerting more effort. I'm preoccupying myself with my studies, cheerleading and fencing (nourishing my unhealthy social life, too). I can say it pretty much worked but after seeing a movie today with him, ergh.. my efforts vanished and I'm back to square 1. I remained calm when I felt his cell phone constantly vibrate while watching this fiction movie. He acted as if he didn't feel it but his face showed he was nervous. I made him read the message and when he did, he snatched it out of my sight. Hah! I knew something's really going on. It was a girl. Named Abbie. (Sorry to say these things but I just had to let it out) Probably another entertainer from Malate. Admit it. Those girls can be extremely pretty, not to mention undeniably aggressive, too. I forced myself to remain steady. Is it in men's nature to flirt around with dirty girls? Trivia: Malate bitches are fond of Chinese guys daw. *Hysterically laughs*

Raid Prostitutes!
I'm chatting with a friend of mine right now and she corrected me. Those girls his barkada is hooking up with aren't prostitutes. They're just the type of girls who show up in bars to bitch around but aren't necessarily paid. HAH! This case is worse. Come to think of it, they do this not for a living but because they just want to. Disgusting but true.

I want to believe that they're together. I want to believe that they're doing well so that I may move on with my life without hesitations and regrets. He always drops hints and reasons that there is still chance for the both of us. It's so selfish of him to do so. He just doesn't want to lose a girl. So there. I guess I'm out of the picture. God's so nice that He gave him back to me the second time around. This time, not for the sake that we'd be able to give it another shot but for the sake for me to know how shitty he could get. I guess I'm giving him away to that Abbie. It's always the bastard's loss if he chooses the bitch over a bone.

My apologies to the people who are affected by this entry

-Tinay 9:48 PM |

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~*~I have my feet buried beneath sand, I have my mind burned with desire and I have my heart blistered with your broken promises~*~

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